Getting asked who I am...

I can't help but laugh when people ask me who I am. Yes, in the public I go by Craig Saint. I have for years now. It doesn't matter my name, or who I know, but what really does matter is that I am an honest genuine person. Sometimes though, it seems as if people like to mistake my kindness for weakness. I find it extremely frustrating that the values and morals have gone down in today's society. However, the way I was raised, with values and morals separate and distinguish between (not in the monetary sense) the higher class of society and the lower class of society.

Keep your values and convictions and you will shine bright!

Hockey Night in Oshawa

There is nothing more therapeutic to a Canadian, than racing around the ice slapping at the puck. If you had the chance to do so you might enjoy just as much as I do. I also have had the opportunity to read Walter Gretzky's book, On Hockey, Family and Healing. It helped me through some rough times.

I recently gave that book away in hopes to help someone through a rough time. I will never get that book back. However, so long as this person reads it, they will learn the same things I learned from it. How to let go of the negativity and the past hurt through hockey.

So in the time-being I will continue to strive for greatness in my life.

Like the Matthew Wilder song says:

Ain't nothin' gonna to break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down, oh-no
I got to keep on movin'
Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
I'm running and I won't touch ground
Oh-no, I got to keep on movin'

Manipulator

We all know that breaking up with someone isn't easy. It is especially difficult when the other party insists on making your life a nightmare. I have said many times before to avoid liars, cheats and fakes. I have also mentioned to stay away from manipulative people.

Problem is, yes, I admit it. I get caught from time to time with one of these type of people.

I should be the one following my own advice. But, I have a soft spot, I like to give people the benefit of the doubt. It always seems that when I catch on to the deceptions and lies, it becomes my fault. The manipulator will always turn on you.

I know it's not fair. You didn't deserve this. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and carry on wayward.

I am...

I am the star in my own movie. I am also the author and the director. I create wonderful roles for myself.

 

Sometimes I forget that I am the creator of my own destiny. I have created a master role for myself and the only thing left I have to do is prove it to myself that I am worthy of the life I have created.

Bipolar

Bipolar Disorder. It is a very touchy subject to talk about. Many people think it is a mental disorder. When in fact it is a mood disorder. I found some interesting facts about bipolar disorder and I would like to share them.

• Approximately 8% of adults will experience major depression at some time in their lives.
• About 1% of Canadians will experience bipolar disorder (or “manic depression”).
•  A complex interplay of genetic, biological, personality and environmental factors causes mental illnesses.
• Almost one half (49%) of those who feel they have suffered from depression or anxiety have never gone to see a doctor about this problem.
• Stigma or discrimination attached to mental illnesses presents a serious barrier, not only to diagnosis and treatment but also to acceptance in the community.
• When people have bipolar disorder, their brain works differently from the usual way. Our brains help us to think, feel and act in certain ways. When people have bipolar disorder, they think, feel and act differently from how they do when they’re well.
   
• There is almost always two different phases with bipolar disorder — lows called depression and highs called mania. During a low phase, the person is sad and often withdrawn. This is called depression. During a high phase, the person is either way too happy or way too angry. 
• The person is very energetic and more outgoing than usual. This is called mania. At other times, the person is his or her usual self.
   
• Bipolar disorder can vary from person to person — it can be mild, or it can be a more difficult struggle.

As someone who has this disorder, I shared this as a way to help you understand.

Having bipolar disorder is not a weakness.

Liars, Cheats and Fakes

No one likes to be lied to, cheated on or manipulated. Looking back over the years, I can definitely say I have had my fair share of run ins with this people. It seems even to this day that I encounter these people on a daily basis. 

Just because you don't physically commit an act of infidelity it doesn't mean you didn't cheat. If you are in a committed relationship, and you spend more time with another person outside of your relationship, allowing it to fall apart. You have just committed what is known as an emotional affair. You have become attached to a friendship that consumed you, there was something you wanted out of the friendship and you did whatever you could to maintain that friendship.

In the meantime the original relationship deteriorates to the point where nothing is left.

Cheating. Lying. Fake.

The Balance

I can't remember a time when I haven't been involved in the public. Throughout my triumphs and my defeats I continue to delve into the world around me. I immerse myself entirely in what I do. I don't give up. Sometimes though, I have to let you know, that the private life clashes with the public life. When it does you had better be prepared for the storm that is coming. Sun Tzu described in The Art of War;

"All warfare is based on deception. Hence, when we are able to attack, we must seem unable; when using our forces, we must appear inactive; when we are near, we must make the enemy believe we are far away; when far away, we must make him believe we are near."

I like to think that in times of peace, you prepare for the battle.

So when the two worlds collide it may seem like the end, because you are in the public eye, people are watching you. But, yes at the same time you have remain resilient.

Another story that comes to mind is the story of Samson and Delilah. Samson was a biblical man with long flowing hair that gave him strength. He met a woman named Delilah. One day, while Samson was sleeping, Delilah allowed his enemies to come and shave his hair. They then imprisoned him and later killed him.

Samson had let his guard down, and his strength was stolen from him.

It is what you choose now to remain strong. In the public eye and private life.

You Don't Even Know Bro...

·       WHAT’S THE DEAL WITH PEOPLE EXPECTING MORE OUT OF YOU WHEN YOU CAN’T EVEN PRODUCE WHAT YOU WANT TO… YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW BRO… THE STRESS IS KILLING ME ALREADY AND I HAVEN’T REACHED MID TERM YET… I GUESS MAYBE I SHOULD THROW BACK TO OuR DAYS FROM LAST SEMESTER AND DIG UP SOME OF THOSE POSITIVE STRESS RELIEVERS….

·       WHAT DO YOU DO TO RELIEVE STRESS? I NEED A NEW OUTLET!...

·       LETS KEEP SOME IDEAS FLOWING TWEET ME LIVE CHAT I’M HERE…

·       ANOTHER THING YOU MIGHT NOT EVEN KNOW BRO… PEOPLE IN THIS SCHOOL ARE DISGUSTING…. I CAN’T STAND THE STATE OF SOME OF THE FACILITIES IN HERE… DID YOUR PARENTS RAISE YOU THIS WAY?... DID THEY TAKE CARE OF YOUR BODILY FUNCTIONS FOR YOU UP UNTIL 18… AREN’T WE ALL ADULTS HERE? COME ON PEOPLE GET IT TOGETHER

Affirmation

"Education develops the intellect; and the intellect distinguishes man from other creatures. It is education that enables man to harness nature and utilize her resources for the well-being and improvement of his life. The key for the betterment and completeness of modern living is education."
- Haile Selassie

You Don't Even Know Bro

I have been seeing a lot of ignorance in the world lately… there has been a steady decline in respect for your fellow peers… for instance these buses that come in and out of the school… Back packs are made out of a washable material… you can take that off and put it down… or hold it… and how about these people that sit there with their bags on the seat beside them?... Look at it… it must have some feelings or thoughts because it’s chillin there… you don’t even know bro… that’s something that i can’t stand…

you bro, you don’t even know… but being a broadcast student and someone who has been doing this for a while you get acustomed to moving quickly… i can make decent time walking through the school… however when there is a two-way door and people decide to walk through with their whole group in-line I have to stop for this large swarm of mouth breathers… and they cut you off… and sometimes just stop dead in the middle of traffic… come on now… you guys don’t drive like this do you?... well maybe you do… I don’t but that’s another story… Like today spot me and the General getting run down by a car near the oshawa center… im here in a red wings away jersey… middle of the intersection… next thing i know i could have died… You don’t even know bro… ignorance is everywhere…

Changes

As with every aspect of life, this blog is subject to changes and revisions. As I said before I would be doing a weekly review of some of the DC comics I am reading, however I would also like to use this blog as a vehicle to promote my show on www.riotradio.ca. I will post my thought process for the show as I build each live show from Thursdays until Wednesdays, which will culminate in a live 1 hour show on Wednesday nights at 10. The first show is kind of up in the air right now... Thinking of a theme, right now I'm thinking a dedication to my ex lovers. You don't even know bro.

The Weekly Review. Will showcase which stories I have been reading from DC Comics the New 52. Each week will get a different issue and sometimes I may mix things up and throw in some Marvel.